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volume 108 / issue 01
STEPHEN BARILE / DEANNA BARINGER / LAWRENCE WILLIAM BERGGOETZ / MICHAEL BOCCARDO / Z.Z. BOONE / NATALIE CHRISTENSEN / AYUNA COLLINS / LAINE DERR / REBECCA FALZANO / DAN FERGUSON / CAL FREEMAN / KIMBERLY GLANZMAN / ZEBULON HUSET / LAURA JONES / PAUL KENNEBECK / ZACHARY KLUCKMAN / ESTY LOVEING-DOWNES / THEA MATTHEWS / SHANE MCCLATCHEY / WILLIAM MILLER / JOSEPH POWELL / CHRISTINA QUINTANA (CQ) / K.A. RAMIL / FORREST RAPIER / REEM RASHASH-SHABAAN / TESS ROSENBERG / RICHARD SCHIFFMAN / GORDON SKALLEBERG / CATHERINE EATON SKINNER / SAMUEL SWAUGER / TERRA TREVOR / CRISTINA TROUFA / MICHAEL WATERSON
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Featuring Cristina Troufa & Z.Z. Boone
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CRISTINA TROUFA / O DEDO ACRYLIC ON LINEN
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S A N TA C L A R A R E V I E W EDITOR-IN-CHIEF EMMA KULI ASSOCIATE EDITOR TERESA CONTINO
PRODUCTION EDITOR ALICE LEE
POETRY EDITOR ANTHONY ALEGRETE
ART EDITOR VICTORIA RUSSO
NONFICTION EDITOR SHENIR DENNIS
FICTION EDITOR ISAAC YELDER
WEBMASTER KISH RAI MARKETING DIRECTOR EMMA LIGTENBERG
OWL EDITOR ALEXA ALFANO FACULTY ADVISOR MIAH JEFFRA
ASSISTANT EDITORS PRODUCTION
ELLIE STERN
ART
LYDIA FITZGERALD
POETRY
NONFICTION
FICTION
THE OWL
MOLLY WORFORD JADEN FONG ALYSE GREENBAUM MIYA DRISCOLL
SARAH JAMES KYLER JUAREZ ALEX LAW SHANNON LUND
ALINA PINCOMBE ASHLEY TANG LIZ REYNOSO GUTIERREZ NATE BARNES
SARAH SCHULIST FRIDA RIVERA
EDITORIAL BOARD MAEVE CORBETT MURPHY DAILEY GRACE GILMORE FIONA JOFFROY CARLY KELLNER
BRAD LEWINSKI VICKY PHAM ARIA TA ALEXA VEGA BISHOP WASHINGTON SOFIA WOOD
TABLE OF CONTENTS POETRY 31 32 33 38 46 47 50
51 53 55 72 73 LAINE DERR / FLESHED 77 78 80 82
85 90 91 95 99 101 102 103
FICTION 7 17 56
NONFICTION TERRA TREVOR /
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ART CRISTINA TROUFA / LUZ 2 CRISTINA TROUFA / SO CLOSE 3 CRISTINA TROUFA / ASCENSÃO 4 CRISTINA TROUFA / O DEDO 5 34 / TREAD
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76 AYUNA COLLINS / 81 86
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volume 108 / issue 01
DEAR READER,
I am honored to share Volume 108, Issue 1 of the Santa Clara Review with you.
Santa Clara Review
Review’s powerful literary platform to amplify
editor in chief
CRISTINA TROUFA featured artist
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LUZ CRISTINA TROUFA acrylic on linen
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SO CLOSE CRISTINA TROUFA acrylic on linen
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ASCENSÃO CRISTINA TROUFA acrylic on linen
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O DEDO CRISTINA TROUFA acrylic on linen
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featured author
Rose Cottages, Korea, and Buck Fever
Full Moon in Blue Water The Last Elephant
stories,
Good.
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Z.Z.
fiction
CLIFF
out.
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Z.Z.
undershirt. wagon train.
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Z.Z.
Stillman’s Superette.
on either side.
lose him.
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Z.Z.
oil.
what he was saying.
Staten Island Sentinel
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Z.Z.
and a .38.
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Z.Z.
tire rut as a reminder. Practice Safe Sex, it said. Mark the Sheep that Kick.
radio.
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Z.Z.
weapons.
I nodded.
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Z.Z.
hat.
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Z.Z.
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Z.Z.
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Z.Z.
fiction
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Z.Z.
Figured I deserved a toy, he wrote. Dinner at Applebee’s and guess who’s lifting the check? with dollar signs for eyes and drool dripping from its mouth. You’re not going back to work? , Jessup answered. And neither are you. The story was in the
no strings.
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Z.Z.
to him.
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Z.Z.
hang with Jessup.
Gilma, who hated dirty dishes, set out a paper plate, a single paper
the plate.
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Z.Z.
said.
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Z.Z.
glass.
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Z.Z.
grinning.
from around him.
half-hanging out his window.
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Z.Z.
draft, and Jessup was ordering the same when Starly stopped and stared
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Z.Z. at him.
his dresser.
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Z.Z.
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Z.Z.
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Z.Z.
dire health.
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Z.Z. stolen his wallet.
mold and mouse shit.
BRUCE EATS SHIT
pulled down and pissed on.
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Z.Z.
from the outside, so there was no fresh air, no moonlight. He wished he’d
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RICHARD poetry
of my own moon-mad mutant mind.
of whim and whimsies.
– of mystery –
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K.A.
poetry
or mourning, depending on where you stand light of the streetlamp.
the sunrise in the shots.
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FORREST poetry
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TESS photography
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TREAD TESS photography
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TESS photography
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TESS photography
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FORREST poetry
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FORREST
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DAN oil on canvas
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DAN oil on panel
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DION DAN oil on panel
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TERRA TREVOR nonfiction
FACE
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TERRA TREVOR
Then, at age twenty-three, I suddenly found myself employed full-
resume.
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TERRA TREVOR
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CHRISTINA poetry
After Catherine Barnett I forget
It seems the do and the done are all tied up in one.
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DEANNA poetry
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GORDON oil on plywood
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ISOLATION GORDON oil on plywood
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DEANNA poetry
and see how! low! can! you! go! enough,
an egg that isn’t rotten.
do, do not, and
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CAL
poetry
for Jon Gueli
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CAL
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STEPHEN poetry
May 15, 1950 He had it. Fats
Dizzy, through all ranges of his horn out of nowhere. More straight-ahead trumpet,
speedy passages, Charlie Parker Quintet Birdland.
He had it, that night. with Bird and Fats together, with one-night
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STEPHEN Bird to put him on the Monday-night gig,
good-natured and well-mannered, Dizzy on bebop-trumpet.
Welfare Island,
Andy Kirk, the paid for the funeral.
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MICHAEL WATERSON poetry
You are the tortilla, I said, of the whole enchilada, the arrow shot through love’s heart.
all the best feeling hollow eyes following me, wondering what in the world to do
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PAUL
fiction
LAST RITES
He turned his head from her.
that something is whispered.
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won’t
She did the laundry.
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PAUL
especially - a sound Really *
Jamie was her sister. rock it.
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I’ll be the one to have to deal with that Your
PAUL
ever
can’t
from them.
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PAUL
all
gift of feeling superior to them.
She nodded.
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PAUL need
*
waiting room with the two women for a length of time.
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DO NATALIE CHRISTENSEN photography
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NATALIE CHRISTENSEN photography
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SLOW DRAIN IN WINTER NATALIE CHRISTENSEN photography
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LAURA nonfiction
mind you. -
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LAURA
them to grow. -
very -
-
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LAURA
transforming lead into gold. Imagine if I were to touch you with an ice cold washcloth. You’ll that increases air into the upper lungs from the lower lungs. I’ve just taught you how to take a bigger, deeper breath. Now the brain and the body has experienced it and are able to repeat that on their own with ongoing therapy and support.
learned to add.
– a
to sleep
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Of course it doesn’t, she says. The lack of oxygen puts you
LAURA
needed in the godawful heat of Miami Shores.
semester set her straight. The teacher split the class, Occupational Therapists on one side, physical therapists on the other. I kept asking questions and the teacher would tell me, you’re on the wrong side of the class. Being a smart-mouthed New Yorker, I said, I’m just sitting in a chair. But she kept saying, the kind of questions you’re asking, they’re what an occupational therapist would ask. A physical therapist only cares about range of motion; they don’t care about how somebody uses what you’re helping them rehab. That made no sense to me. I thought you should treat the whole person. Even the family. Well, that’s what an occupational therapist does.
lifted my daughter to an almost seated position. Her left hand supported
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LAURA
sshhhhh through her This happens, she said. We’ll try again tomorrow.
soldiers fall. yes.
The next day I came in and one of the other therapists pulled me aside. She was crying. She said, I’m so sorry to tell you, but he died. I was in shock and disbelief. I left the NICU. I didn’t see another patient that day. I started questioning why we do what we do. – this
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LAURA
swiftly –
Who me? I thought. She must be kidding.
They thanked me for never once judging their family. Many people gave up on this girl because of her diagnosis. We knew she was going to die, her mother said, but you never gave up. She said I saw her baby for who she was. worth. It’s really hard to lose someone, especially a baby, especially in the NICU. But if I can make you comfortable or teach you something – how to eat, how to then you’ve taught me more than I taught you.
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SAMUEL poetry
desperation.
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ZEBULON HUSET poetry
situation
door.
disintegrated.
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SHANE oil on panel
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SHANE oil on canvas
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FIN SHANE oil on panel
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LAINE DERR poetry
FLESHED
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ZACHARY poetry
The last.
••
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ZACHARY
our history was for sale. our marriage a wet dog
•• How I threw your photos in the trash, dug them out.
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ZACHARY poetry
lips.
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AYUNA COLLINS oil on canvas
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CHRISTINA poetry
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CHRISTINA
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LAWRENCE WILLIAM nonfiction
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The Tao Te Ching -
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KIMBERLY poetry
CARELESSNESS wild tunes trapped in my throat. the ghosts
with lidless, open eyes – drifting,
and drag me down to drown, to dream,
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REEM mixed media
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REEM mixed media
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REEM mixed media
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REEM mixed media
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WILLIAM poetry
on the other side
where we played toy soldiers
that stand together and apart,
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ESTY poetry
If there’s a funeral for God,
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CATHERINE EATON encaustic, oil, monotype print on paper on panel
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CATHERINE EATON encaustic, oil stick on panel
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CATHERINE EATON encaustic, oil, paper on panel
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REBECCA FALZANO Carry It Gently - a poetry series
FOUND
First, the forgetting and then,
sound of mom spelling your name for disjointed letters that still hold the memory of shape, of mattering.
memories
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REBECCA FALZANO Carry It Gently - a poetry series
I wait for your eyelids to surrender the Hail Mary, plaid uniforms, I get as far as My grandmother used to tell me her way of saying women get shit done.
you will rise again.
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REBECCA FALZANO Carry It Gently - a poetry series
during the day.
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REBECCA FALZANO Carry It Gently - a poetry series
This doesn’t mean we don’t wring them at the window, when the day starts slipping into the last
They are the last part of a person we hold onto, They’re language if we’re listening
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JOSEPH poetry
the you,
and the woman the youthe you-
the you,
the you, the you,
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JOSEPH
for me, yes, I said a prayer for all of you, hoping that God will listen.
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THEA poetry
AMERICANA
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KIMBERLY poetry
ASHES intention furrows into me,
and if it doesn’t – who am I
the same. salt is sand is stone map of a heron’s wing,
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MICHAEL poetry
STEAL WHAT LITTLE YOU CAN
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volume 108 / issue 01
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Stephen Barile
Metafore Magazine, New Plains Review, The Heartland Review, Rio Grande Review, The Packinghouse Review, Undercurrents, The Broad River Review, The San Joaquin Review, Haight-Ashbury Literary Journal, Beginnings, Pharos, and Flies, Cockroaches, and Poets. Deanna Baringer appeared in Lily Poetry Review Lawrence William Berggoetz The Bitter Oleander, Sheepshead Review, Skidrow Penthouse, Stoneboat, Blue Heron Review, Evening Street Press Review, Apeiron Review, Poetry Quarterly, and elsewhere. Michael Boccardo , and Best New Poets, as well as the anthologies Spaces Between Us: Poetry, Prose, and Art on HIV/AIDS and Southern Poetry Anthology, VII: North Carolina. He
Z.Z. Boone
Rose Cottages, Korea, and Buck Fever, Full Moon in Blue Water The Last Elephant
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. Natalie Christensen
Ayuna Collins
Laine Derr Rebecca Falzano
Dan Ferguson
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Cal Freeman
Fight Songs. His writing has appeared The Poetry Review, Southword, The Cortland Review, Southwest Review, and Poolside at the Dearborn Inn Kimberly Glanzman n South Dakota Review, Harpur Palate, Puerto del Sol, Barely South, perhappened, and Electric Lit Zebulon Huset Meridian, The Southern Review, Santa Clara Review, Fence, Rosebud, Atlanta Review, Texas Review, and Fjords Review Notebooking Daily and is the editor of the journal Coastal Shelf. Laura Jones They Said . Fourth Genre , and Wraparound South, to name a few.
Paul Kennebeck story in Harper’s Magazine entitled Baldessari’s Dead Sea Flights Carve Magazine, , and f(r)iction magazine. Zachary Kluckman
Muscle Rearview Funhouse. SANTA CLARA REVIEW |
Esty Loveing-Downes
Oddities, and
West Trestle Review, Shift: A Journal of Literary .
Thea Matthews author of Unearth [The Flowers]
The New Republic, Atlanta
Shane McClatchey
William Miller’s
LEE CIRCLE
Poetry Review, The Penn Review, Shenandoah, Prairie Schooner, and West Branch Joseph Powell . His poems vox poetica, WORDPEACE, Marble Hand, The Blue Mountain Review, and Papers Skin,
Christina Quintana (CQ) is the author of the full-length play Scissoring The Heart Wants
K.A. Ramil
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Forrest Rapier Asheville Poetry Review, Best New Poets, Denver Quarterly Review, Texas Poetry Review, , and Greensboro Review editor for Greensboro Review
Reem Rashash-Shaaban Hill Magazine, The Twisted Vine, Milk Magazine, Drabblez, and the
Tess Rosenberg
October Sukoon, Goat’s
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Alaska Quarterly, the New Ohio Review, the Christian Science Monitor, the , Writer’s , , Verse Daily What the Dust Doesn’t Know was Gordon Skalleberg Catherine Eaton Skinner
Marking Code series pursues a deep SANTA CLARA REVIEW |
I Ching
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Samuel Swauger
Terra Trevor
Cristina Troufa
Michael Waterson California Quarterly, Cathexis Northwest, and
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